The secret yet blatant ab/use of woman in sexmagical practice: Introduction

The following may be deeply disturbing for some of you to read, and evoke responses of disbelief, as it would have done in myself, had I not become an experiential witness to that of which I am about to speak. 

Please, if you find the following difficult to integrate with your worldview, simply back away from it. I do not wish to create discord, or quarrel. I wish to illuminate a sinister undercurrent of current reality for those who are interested in this information, and whom it serves for their current purpose and understanding of their life experience. I am sharing for the sake of making it known, speaking to it, and dealing with it effectively; for the sake of protection of those exposed or potentially exposed or marginally enough exposed to feel a resonance when they read my words; for those wishing to make sense of the darker aspects of the web of life. 

If you wish to fight what you read, please take it elsewhere. 

Now that this is settled, that I've spoken to this aspect, I wish to state the obvious: 
All my writing is based on my unique perspective on life, of the unique experiences I have had. My perspective is continuously evolving, as I imagine is yours. What I write today is my perspective of today, which does not incorporate the added information and increased clarity I will have tomorrow. Therefore, while wishing to be understood and seen, I also wish for you to take my current conclusions for what they are: temporary conclusions, ever-changing with each new awareness and insight. 

Background: 
It has become apparent to me, through my own personal experience, that something is happening on this planet that I find profoundly disturbing, and alarming: The deliberate use of female force for metaphysical practices - without her conscious choice, or knowledge, or inclusion. 

This often includes so-called "satanic" practices of drugging women for rape, video-taped sexual acts, and prostitution, which is in the area of financial gain through the by-her-unauthorized use of a woman's life force. 

In addition to these rather blatant exploitation of female force, there are way more sophisticated avenues for this quality of unauthorized use of a woman's sexual energy to occur: Practices that may have little to do with overt economic or other gain. I am not quite clear yet how this can occur on such a large scale. I've only cracked the lid on Pandora's box. I know that I'm only seeing the tip of the tip of the tip of the iceberg. And iceberg is the right word, because it appears there is a world of pure logical calculation, in which no heart is safe, and in which all progress is simply a matter of math. 

I used to believe that the abuse of women, violence against women, and the brutalization of female sexuality, were mere side effects of a wounded system, and as such coming from lack of awareness or consciousness. Meaning I believed people were doing these things unconsciously. I have now come to understand that some of this is not at all lack of consciousness, rather, if I insist on retaining the CONSC word root, it is lack of conscience. I have come to realize that much that is done against women's wellbeing is designed to use women, deliberately keeping the feminine under control through trauma, secrecy, and yanking away of her budding powers. 

A fully fledged woman cannot be harmed. A woman fully in her power is no longer swayable, or usable. A woman whose powers are emerging is the best target: Her powers are becoming present, but she herself hasn't seized control of them yet, may not be aware of them yet. This is the most dangerous time for a woman regarding predatorial critters. A woman possesses, by nature, something that is coveted by metaphysicians who wish to engage in creational magic: the ability to grow a seed, a concept, an idea, into a living, breathing being. 

The puzzle has assembled itself. In ten dimensions, not unlike the Tree of Life, the unfathomable has become capturable. The structure, always visible, now makes sense. It's an "Open Secret," but I've been blind to it. So here I sit and wonder: "What the fuck over, Yahweh? Lucifer? THIS is a problem. I think I have to take it to your superior."  

Who do they think cares about their ancient feud? Yahweh didn’t give humans free will and is jealous because Lucifer allows them now to nibble on the tree of knowledge? Really? Who do they think is interested in this battle of the Gods? Why don't they take it elsewhere?! 

If you ask me, I think they're both offspring of the same tree. The tree comes into perceptibility through the oscillation between those poles, Yahweh and Lucifer. Take one off : —> No tree. The game is: "See me (the tree) through contrast." 

So “there once were….” two siblings, both well-meaning, but each going about it very differently. But that's all. They're offspring. They're not IT. They’re not the “Superior,” God, Absolute Reality. Like you and me and our beloved planet, they’re an expression of it. That’s all. 

So beyond, beyond, beyond we see. And we don't hesitate, we don't stop, pass go, or collect $200, instead we see: NOW. Penetrate into the heart of things and unhinge the whole racket at once. 

"Hate" (in the sense of forcing away what is present) is the specialty of "the enemy," the one perceived as “enemy,” and perceiving “enemy.” And thus, returning to it anger and rejection and fighting-against is useless. For: It's not the specialty of humans. Fighting-against is NOT our strong suit. Moving-with is. Therefore the only overpowering force is Nonviolence. Truthforce. Movement from a pure and present heart. And that's a choice. THAT's what free will is. It's got nothing to do with good or bad, it just doesn't. It's just that moving-with is healthier for human beings, that's all. "It's not good, it's good FOR you." 

Because the above-named "superior” loves all of itself, you cannot go wrong by being whatever you are. Whatever you are. Really. Truly. Because whatever you are, you are part of it, and you are it. And however you manifest, each moment, you are loved. That's not the question. LOVE is not the question. 

The question is WILL. Free will. True will. Can my true will be different from God’s will and still be sustainable, truly pleasurable, truly desirable, truly be my true will? 

To me, violence is anything that fights against the way the life force is present in each moment – a losing battle, anyway, but we try. Nonviolence is anything that moves with the way the life force is present. And if you ask me, that's the only reason to do it, to cultivate nonviolence: That it's simply healthier and less stressful to the human organism. Nonviolence works with our nature. There is a feeling of thriving, life rushing through my veins: Pulsing, halting, coagulating, even dividing. And letting my consciousness flow along with those movements is what makes all the difference. Walking straight through all violence, touched yet untouched, touched but unbothered, laying a new trail of light: And now. And now. And now. Each moment. Walking straight through all of it. Not inferring meaning from the observed. Just waking up each moment, again. And now. And now. And now. 

And because that above named "superior” doesn't mind whatever the quality of your outfit, whatever adjective you dress yourself or another with, there is no need to rebel. Because you're accepted rebelling and complying. Because there is no law. There is no law. 

Such is free will: The choice is yours. And it's NOT a choice between good or evil. It's not. It's between: Do I still want to fight this? Do I still want to do this to my human organism? Or do I want to position myself in a way that supports and nurtures the inherent nonviolence of this human organism? And yes, Gaian creatures do hunt to eat. Including us human apes. That's NOT what I consider violence. As I see it, hunting to eat is something that arises WITH the flow of all that is.

So our famous free will simply speaks to a choice about self-care, all-care, Gaia-care, NOT to the ability to choose "good or evil". Because there is no good or evil.  There just is. Accepting our Gaian condition, which is that violence simply isn't all that natural to us, we can choose to thrive. Just for the fun of it. The joy of it. The well-feeling of it. It's simply going WITH OUR NATURE. That's what I think. It doesn't mean that conflict stops. Because discourse is part of our nature, and how we grow. It just means that fighting the conflict stops, trying to make the obvious go away, that stops. 

It’s God’s will that’s my true will. And that will is what is. I can fight this will, or I can will with it. I can observe and be willing to be with its emergence through me. That’s my choice. That’s how free will manifests. No Yahweh, no Lucifer required. 

That's my ode to life for today. Thanks for listening. ​